Hallo zusammen!

 1. 2022 ist mein achtes Jahr in als Lehrerin in Mersing.

2. Ich bin gerade mit meinem 2. Kind schwanger.

3. Mein erstes Kind ist 3 Jahre alt. Sie hat im Juli Geburtstag. 

Das ist alles!

Two pregnancy check-ups later...

Hello! I'm still standing!

The last check up was uneventful, Obimin dekat KK dah habis so I had to buy my own at a pharmacy.  Harga 30 tablets =  RM18.00. Nurse offer pil 4 serangkai but I refused. But then I read that pil 4 serangkai tu, walaupun leceh dari segi pemakanan, tapi lebih efisien dari segi penyerapan dlm badan.
I still have sembelit. 2L air sehari is a must, no less. Sekali masuk toilet mesti kena spend 10 minutes to coax things out hahaha.
During last week's checkup - I was 16 weeks pregnant - we found out that berat I naik 2.4 kg dalam sebulan. So nurse bebel. Dia kata banyak sangat naik.. Sepatutnya awal-awal ni, 0.5 - 1.0 kg sahaja. So she put me on probation and I kena datang klinik lagi dalam masa dua minggu. Jadual check up dkt KK, kalau ade problem, checkup 2 minggu sekali, kalau takde problem, sebulan sekali. Masa timbang tu dia macam dah nak suruh minum air gula lagi, but I said, kita tunggu dua minggu lagi, tengok berat naik tak baru lah decide. So now, I'm on diet. (NOOTTTT. Tadi petang I habiskan sepinggan pisang goreng cheese, Hazrul tengok je, dia tak makan. Haha)
Bila penat, perut I akan sakit, especially bawah perut tu. Oh ye, I am not thin, so perut I memang dah nampak la. Orang akan tanya berapa bulan, so bila I jawab, mostly orang ckp ehhh besarnye perut! Tapi tadi siang, bila I bagitau berapa bulan, orang cakap, ehh kecik je perut. Hahaha. Whateverlah uols.
I'm still trying to minimize my movements and slowing things down. Hopefully Pinat is OK inside.
Two hours ago, I thought I felt Pinat kicking. Rasa macam ade belon isi air dalam perut, pastu belon tu bergegar. I dont know yet how does it really feel when the baby kicks, but I hope Pinat is healthy and thriving, and kicking around for Hazrul to feel at least within the next three weeks. It's so lovely, the feeling that our love is growing healthily.

I am looking around for antenatal class and clinics to do detail scan, and also the 3D 4D 5D scans.. Will update soonestttt

My Primigravida Experience

In case you're wondering, primigravida means first pregnancy!

Yes you read it right. I am pregnant with our first baby! Hehe. We got through the first trimester so I believe its safe now to announce the upcoming arrival of our bundle of joy. I want to record everything here so I don't forget.

My 13 weeks of pregnancy so far

1. Started taking multivitamins on 7th November 2019. Throughout the month, my GPK HEM was telling me not to lift heavy things, not to do tiring activities etc. She said it's dangerous because I'm pregnant. I waved away what she said because I didn't know then. But at around the same time when my period was about to start, my breasts started aching. It was really painful. I really wanted a baby at this time, been reading a lot about the first symptoms... So I started watching myself for signs. Energy level was normal at this time, I have no other problems.
2. Masuk bulan Disember, haid masih tak datang. I was between sure and unsure. My breasts were still aching. Nak mandi pun susah. Early Dec, Haz and I pergi honeymoon at Krabi. Hari pertama was OK. Masuk hari kedua, kepala I pening. I blamed it on the constant moving and food. Yelah tempat baru kan. Tapi still pegi naik bot, snorkeling, went to Emerald Pool and walked around town. Kepala I pening all the time! Pening dia mcm nak muntah tapi takde la rasa nak muntah lagi time ni. But I don't want to just stay in the room and waste time and money spent. Masa ni tenaga pun dah kurang. On the trip to Emerald Pool, we took almost 45 minutes to walk 800m. Kesian Haz, he had to follow my pace. But I was so tired, head reeling, pushing myself to go forwards because I want to. Luckily baby is safe... all that activity...
3. Balik dari Krabi, I had to go back to Mersing sebab nak distribute result PT3. Masa dkt rumah mmg I pun baring je and xnak buat ape2, tapi ingatkan sebab jetlag ke apa ke. 12.12.18 I balik Mersing, 14.12 tu balik Melaka and 15.12.2018 balik KL semula. Mak drove me from Ayer Hitam to Melaka. Bila dah sampai Melaka, I muntah in the car. Mak dan ayah kept on asking questions sampai la diorg satisfied, diorg cakap, betul lah tu dah mengandung... hahaha. I went on to watch Fantastic Beasts 2 with Mira that evening.
4. On 16.12.2018 baru Haz dapat bawak I pegi klinik. And the doctor straight away told me to lie down for an ultrasound. 



Here's Pinat!

5. We saw baby Pinat for the first time.. Pinat was 7 weeks old. well, Pinat was shaped like a peanut at that time and that was why I decided for "Pinat"! And siap ade heartbeat lagi. Masa tu confused gila haha I heard a dumdumdumdumdum sound pastu doc ckp itu jantung baby... and I said "Oh, tu?" and doctor said aik mcm barang je you cakap. Haha. and then I asked the assistant to call Hazrul outside. He came in smiling. Well, he's a smiler. Doctor bagi folic acid pills. It cost Haz RM90 for the whole session.
6. So I teruskan being pregnant. Problem is, the moment I tau mengandung, badan dah ready to spill out the signs.. I pening, muntah muntah muntah every morning. Ade sekali tu tengah breakfast dengan Mak Inn, then I pegi muntah. Duduk balik dekat meja n masa tu memang rasa awkward sangat xtahu nak buat apa... tapi sebab segan dgn mak mertua, I sambung je makan nasi yg tinggal lagi sikit. That afternoon she said 'Lalu plak kau makan, kalau mak, dah kembang dah tekak," hahahahhaha
7. The good thing about muntah masa Haz ade is dia kesian dengan I. And also I learnt kalau tengah muntah n ade orang urut belakang leher, you feel better faster. But then, I muntah a lot only when I dengan bapaknye. Bila dah balik Mersing ni muntah subside gitu2 je. Selamba je Pinat.
8. I finished the school holidays, then Mak Asnah n Mira ikut balik Mersing on 25.12.2018. Okey je la the journey, muntah biasa je. Masa tu nak buat buku pink. My friends told me klinik nak IC original suami la, ape la itu la ini la... so I started getting worried sebab memang I nak buat dkt Mersing tapi takkan nak cilok IC Haz plak bawak balik. I called klinik Melaka sebab nak buat dkt Sg Udang la, Haz n I are coming back to Melaka at that time. Kena marah wooooo dengan akak KKSU! Apetah garang beno. I call klinik Tenglu dia cakap, dtg jelah, xyah bawak ape2, bawak IC je. hahahah. Punye la rilek.
9. Anyhow, untuk daftar buku pink, kena bawak 2 salinan IC sendiri, IC suami, n surat/sijil/kad nikah sahaja. Semua fotostat je ok! Pastu kalau korang dah buat ultrasound, bawak la gambar baby tu masa checkup.. some clinics nak proof kita da mengandung, tapi Klinik Desa dekat Mersing ni taknak pun. Dia celup je pH stick dlm urine dia da tau da kita mengandung ke tak kan.
10. So I daftar on 30/12/2018. Klinik Kesihatan ni biasanya dibahagi ikut zon. First time I datang tu hari yang salah, not for my zone. Tapi punyelah degil.. nak jugak buat. So misi bagi check gigi je. Dia suruh datang lagi 2/1/2019. I malas nak datang bila da start sekolah, leceh. Weols kan love the school very muchhh.
11. 2/1/2019 kira check betul-betul la. Test urine, timbang berat (gila!), baring, dia uli2 perut, questions this and that... and dia bagi appointment 7/1/2019 minum air gula (MGTT test). Week 10 da minum air gula. The reasons are I am over 30 years old and according to my BMI, I am obese. Ade ke patut. I went meekly after fasting for 8 hours that night (beginning 10pm). The nurse took a whole syringe of blood from my left arm and asked me to drink the solution. I drank in three gulps. It wasn't that bad.. It wasn't delicious but it was not horrible either. Dah habis minum air gula tu, terus I minum air putih depan misi sebab tekak tak sedap manis sangat. Dia kata takpe, boleh minum. Then I went home and tried to sleep. One time nak termuntah air gula nye but I telan balik kihkih. 2 hours later I went to the clinic again and the nurse took another whole syringe of blood from my right arm. Then I went back to school and ATE.
12. On 2/1/19 the nurse at KD gave me Obimin because my blood pressure was low for a pregnant mother. It was 11.7. Nurse cakap, nearing the end of the pregnancy ianya akan turun dan turun and it's dangerous for the baby and me. Obimin ni ade zat besi, folic acid dan dah lupa vitamin ape lagi satu. Cara nak makan Obimin ni ialah masa perut kosong. My dilemma is, kalau perut kosong, straight away loya and nak muntah. So masa awal-awal tu memang tak ambik la Obimin tu. Hari pertama makan pukul 6 pagi. Konon-konon bila sampai sekolah, pukul 8 dapat makan nasi. Pastu gi minum plak dengan air lemon. Amek ko, muntah oren. Sampai sekolah sambung muntah dalam surau, tak larat nak pegi perhimpunan. Then melepek lagi dekat  bilik kaunseling sampai balik, tak larat nak masuk kelas. So nowadays I makan Obimin sebelum tido je. Tapi, dalam Obimin ni kan ade iron. So sebenarnya dia boost energy. So jadi lah hari-hari I bangun pukul 5 pagi. Xpa lah asalkan x muntah.
13. Everything went fine. On busy days, I can feel my tummy tightening it's almost painful. Whenever I meet the daddy, I will feel nauseous and vomit. But when there are only the two of us in Mersing, Pinat behaves well. So well that I thought my morning sickness has already ended.. This was week 11. Secara kebetulan I read a post on Facebook, where a few mothers share that their morning sickness ended abruptly, before the first trimester, without any other signs. They went for a checkup and saw that they are no longer pregnant. I was so paranoid! I bagitau mak ayah dan sudah tentulah I kena marah. Haha. I told Haz, and he brought me for another ultrasound. I'm sorry Pinat! Jantung dia beats for us to see, and Pinat was jumping all over that I forgot to call Pinat's daddy to come see. This session cost him RM60.00.

14. 

    The acrobatic Pinat

15. I came back to Mersing, and today, 27/1/2019 was another ultrasound appointment. Doktor at Klinik Tenglu kira balik EDD and found out that it was supposed to be 2 days earlier, 2/8/2019 bukan 4/8/2019.  I am also no more obese, I lost around 2.5kgs. But I am still required to do another MGTT test in the 28th week of pregnancy. And another ultrasound scan too. Hehe. 4 more months. Let's see if we don't go for our own scan at a clinic. I have another appointment with another doctor on 29/1/2019 at KD Sawah Dato for a tummy check.

Here's Pinat from today. I think tu bontot dia. Or kepala? I don't know anymore haha

That's it! 13 weeks of pregnancy so far. Will record more often as to avoid a really lengthy post! We love you Pinat the Precious, stay strong!

p/s: On some days I'm very weak, very tired, my body aches all over and I just want to rest. Bear in mind that it is okay for you to rest. You don't have to prove anything. What matters most is the safety of the baby. Good luck mummy!

p/p/s: Daddy, mamy n Pinat nak pegi Cameron!

I GOT MARRIED!

Right now, this guy here is my most favourite person in the world and after the world and beyond, past the edge of the galaxy.

Pardon the size of the picture, I am too lazy to do something to it. I got married on 18 August 2018. The decision for the date went on in a blur. I know I wanted to marry Hazrul, but it kinda went swooooshhh and voila! Suddenly we have a date.

Thankfully his family are fine with the rushed decision.

I was a bit annoyed at first, when I learned that Ena is also marrying her husband on the same day. But then, the cost for the pelamin was cut into half ahahaha

Well 2018 (so far) was a good year. Started off with a bit of a fever (aftermath of the 'Umrah), head still reeling with the fact that I'm gonna marry Haz in eight months, all the emotional turmoils... but it all slowly fell perfectly into place. But today - two months into the marriage - I still haven't cooked him anything except for a measly piece of meat last two weeks. He's still buncit anyway.

Last week, our school won first prize in a national competition. We worked hard on the smart city model for two months - winning was really satisfying. I loved it. Hazrul was there when they announced us winning! I think this was also the reason the win was sweeter. Then, went back to Melaka with my husband and spent two days smelling him. Haha. He doesn't smell. Tak tipuuuuuu. I tried to pick his clothes to put in the wash but could not differentiate which one is dirtier.

Anyhow before you get cringed off by me telling you more things about Haz, I'll stop here. I'm very behind with all my administration work. I had to juggle organizing this morning's prize giving ceremony with the STEM city competition. It was hard. But all that sweat was worth it.

Looking forward for the honeymoon trip with Hazrul in December, and then the school holidays. I didn't manage to convince him to rent another house for the month ahahahaha so we are staying with his family. Hopefully I can manage!

Here's another picture of us looking immensely awkward.

Haha.

B2B post: Photobooth

I have around RM500 budget for photobooth. However, I am still deciding whether I nak guna ke tak duit tu.. or maybe buy something else.

This is because although photobooths is veery pretty, but I dont have that many friends yang akan datang.. so orang kampung yang datang nanti bukannya nak amek gambar pun dkt situ.. sedihlah. haha.

but I am loving the idea of a white background, and fairy lights. Ideas by Farah has very pretty photobooths but she caters seremban and selangor only.. sad.

There is also photobox options. but it costs RM900 minimum and I am not willing to spend that amount of money on other people.. kalau closed event with friends and family xpelah.

will update with my decision soonessstttt

Bride to Be katanyerr

I only wanted to put in the sticker actually. Hehe. Should have done it two months ago.

Update: Apparently I don't know how to paste it permanently in the blog. So here it is, at the top of this post.

Starstruck

Maybe why some people nak pergi dinner dengan celebrity ialah for the after feeling: seronok nak mampos because you know it's a one time thing, you might not get the same chance again. Yelah tu. Ada benda yang kita seronok sangat sebab dapat sekali je. Lepas tu tak dapat lagi dah.

Tapi memang seronok I cannot I must die.

Next week ade meeting dengan Daimler at the Ampang office, I'm so gonna get grilled.

Apakah tugas hakiki?

Mak balik and complained again that her subordinate has failed to complete organizational tasks that literally renders people into hardship atau bahasa Melayunya menyusahkan orang lain.

This guy is always busy as some sort of MC for local events, he seems to be quite popular and has taken a lot of absence leaves even during school periods to go and do his thing.

You know teachers are burdened with organizational tasks outside of teaching. For example, this guy is Penolong Kanan Hal Ehwal Murid and he is responsible for things like application to secondary schools and charity of pupils.

He didn't forward the application form of one pupil who is an OKU until after the closing date, which robbed the rights of the pupil for a sum of money from the government. She needs to use the money to pay for check ups. And since, her grandfather and father has been coming every day to school to ask for the money. It seems like my mother has to reimburse the student with her own money if the Kementerian in Putrajaya does not have any funds left over. My mother was recovering from her eye surgery for a month, and the closing date happened to be during her leave.

At every end of year teachers will submit applications to Sekolah Kawalan on behalf of pupils, which is why you always get this offer from secondary schools even when you don't ask for them. Again, this teacher did not certify the applications even after the closing date. And even refused to do it when asked. You see, JPN wants the applications to be done today and he refused to come to school to do it, wanting to come on Monday and take his own freaking sweet time.

In the end my mother did it.

I have enough of guys like this, who gets people around them to complete their jobs and datang sengih-sengih afterwards.

Wednesday Noon

Cerita Korea ni watak utama dia gadis fashion designer. Dia baru dapat letak baju-baju dia dekat laman web 'online shopping'. Satu hari baju dia nak masuk program TV for new releases. Tetibe owner website tu cakap baju dia salah jahit. Lol tak paham kenapa sebab tak tengok dari awal.

So dah salah jahit, the whole production team kerja sepanjang malam untuk siapkan alteration baju.

Gadis watak utama pun kerja la sepanjang malam. Adik dia jumpa dia dalam tandas sakit perut dan berpeluh-peluh. Cerita Korea biasalah. Sikit-sikit suruh pegi hospital. Tapi watak utama berdegil nak siapkan baju.

So baju siap pagi esoknya pukul 6.30am dan pukul 7 dah siap deliver kat stesen TV.

Gadis watak utama hampir pengsan sakit perut dan dihantar ke hospital.

Doktor x-ray perut dan tekan-tekan perut dia. Meraung-raung watak utama. Boyfriend watak utama cemas lah dia kata kena operate ke apendiks?

Doktor kata tak payah. Dia ni sakit perut bukan sebab apendiks. Tapi sebab malas berak. Usus penuh tahi.

Segan gila gadis watak utama lololololol

Kalau cerita Melayu dah sakit barah dah.

Wonderful Mama

Resepi Ayam Ungkep

Dah macam blog mak-mak plak dah.. Rajin beno post resepi. Sebenarnya ada deadline lagi tiga jam 10 minit. Tapi sebab baru lepas makan nasi dan rasa kagum dengan diri sendiri maka nak la post resepi ni.. Mengajak korang menikmati lauk bersama. Secara virtual.

Pada suatu hari, nak masak dan tiada idea.. Rasa bosan dengan semua lauk yang tau masak (limited knowledge lagipun). Jadi, Google "lauk ayam mudah dan cepat" hahha so jumpalah lauk Ayam Ungkep dari blog kakak ini. Kelihatan sungguh yummy.

Resepinya mudah kerana blender aja semua bahan, lepas tu tumis kemudian bubuh ayam dan tutup biarkan mereka bergelumang dengan mesra. Pastu boleh makan. Kesedapan bahan tumis meresap masuk ke dalam liang-liang ayam.. Fuhh

Bahan-bahannya

Ok you must note that my kitchen selalu tak cukup satu bahan. Contohnya kali ni takde serbuk jintan bagai macam dekat blog kakak tu. So takdelah bubuh. Dan sebab inilah "cooking" is better than "baking". Baking sesuai untuk orang-orang yang persis dan jitu hasil kerjanya.. Sebab baking tak boleh lebih kurang ala kadar campak-campak. Baking kena ukur.. Tepung banyak ni, gula banyak ni, oven mesti panas begini, bakar selama ini.* Berbeza dengan memasak.

Bahan-bahan Ayam Ungkep (kali ni betul punya)

Anda memerlukan kuali yang ada tutup atau boleh ditutup.

Ayam (7 potongan hebat)
Kunyit
Garam

Bawang merah 7 biji
Bawang putih 5 ulas
Cili padi ikut kesukaan kepedasan (tadi letak 7)
Cili merah 1 (sebab cili padi dah habis letaklah cili merah)
Halia 3 cm
Kunyit hidup 3 cm (tak letak pun sebab tak ada kehkeh, letak serbuk kunyit sesudu kecil)
Biji ketumbar secubit
Jintan putih secubit
Cukup Rasa untuk menambah keyakinan

Serai dua batang

Cara-caranya

1. Perap ayam bersama garam dan kunyit. Letak tepi.
2. Blender semua bahan dalam perenggan kedua tadi.
3. Panaskan minyak. Dalam sesenduk
4. Titik serai dan goreng serai tersebut dalam minyak tadi.
5. Tumis semua bahan blender tadi. Tuang aja terus ke kuali jangan malu-malu
6. Ok tumis dalam 10 minit gitu atas api sederhana. Kacau. jangan hangus. Sampai pecah minyak
7. Bubuh ayam. Gaul-gaul. Bubuh Cukup Rasa. Gaul-gaul. Kalau suka kuah bubuh air setengah cawan.
8. Bila ayam dah separuh masak. Tutup kuali anda. Biarkan ayam dan bahan tumis sebati masak bersama. Jaga api dan kacau selalu untuk elak hangus.
9. Boleh diangkat bila warna masakan dah jadi satu shade lebih gelap sikit.

Makan bersama nasi panas wuuu~ wuuuw~

Ketik ketik

Jogjakarta came up in a recent conversation and I thought of an old friend who sat with me when I was bored to death and got his guitar and ketik lagu ini for me.

He's from Jogjakarta. Haha.

Anyway I stopped being friends with him after I came back from Germany because somebody told me he was talking about me behind my back - read: he called me fat.

Not that I am offended if people call me fat. I call me fat every day. But it wasn't nice. When you talk about some proportions being fat.

Apa-apalah. Losing a friend is sad. Especially when he tried to reconcile but I ignored it so high and mightily.

Donat dan dua puluh enam

Haaaaappy birthday to me!

Now is 00:26 am, and I am 26! Yeay!

Main point of this entry adalah untuk tulis resepi donat awesum possum yang dibuat petang tadi. Hey I am 26. Petang tadi baru first time buat donat tanpa penyeliaan orang dewasa. Sebab dah dewasa sangat kan. Hehe.

Resepi ambil dari blog Bukan Chef. Ini resepi untuk nubis kubis tau. Memang akan tulis setiap satu-satu step. Siapa yang dah terer baking backing packing bole rujuk blog Bukan Chef untuk langkah yang lebih ringkas.

Ok mula-mula sekali. Kita kena panaskan air. Sebab nak guna secawan air suam untuk bancuh yis. Air suam yang agak panas. Celup jari sikit, kalau rasa suam tu okeylah tu. So secawan air suam panas. Ambil empat sudu besar gula. Larutkan dalam air suam tadi. Bubuh pula tiga sudu besar susu pekat. Larutkan. Guna satu paket yis, tuang dalam larutan air suam + gula + susu pekat tadi, kacau sikit then biar tepi.

Yis tadi guna cap kijang. Paket kecil tu. Cap Mauripan ada jugak. Tapi dah expired. Ingat nak guna sbb sayang nak buang. Tp bila test sikit masuk dalam air suam, jelas sekali yis dah arwah. Sebab tak berbuih. Kesian betul. Takpela. Buang. Selongkar peti ais jumpa yang Kijang. Expired tahun 2015. Nice nice~ cantik je naik. Pastikan bancuhan yis menjadi tau. Kalau bancuh yis jadi, memang jadi la donat gebu gebas gebana ibu korunk.

Ini rupa bancuhan yis yang successful.

Ok sementara tunggu yis berbuih jadi teh tarik, cairkan tiga sudu mentega/marjerin n campurkan dengan sebiji teloq. Gaul sekata.

Ayak tiga cawan teping gandum. Tepunglah. Bubuh garam setengah sudu teh. Buat lubang gunung berapi di tengah tengah.

Tadi tepung tak cukup woi. Nak pakai tiga cawan, ada dua cawan lebih sikit. Dah la tercampur tepung gandum dengan tepung jagung. Apa benda entah. Balang takde label. Hahaha. Lari la kejap pegi kedai beli tepung. Balik rumah tengok yis dah membuak buak weh cemaaasss

Hahaha. Masa ni dah tinggalkan yis selama 45 minit campur pegi kedai. Oookey. Cepat cepat bergerak. Campur bancuhan yis tarik tadi dengan mentega tadi. Sekatakan gaulannya. Pastu curah dalam kawah gunung berapi. Ok bersedia untuk menguli. Acah-acah je uli. Adunan ni lembik tau. Lekat pada jari jemari. Nak fold/gaul guna senduk pun boleh. Tapi guna la tangan. Baru la air tangan. Uli la ikut suka hati. Kalau lekat sangat renjis tepung sikit. bagilah adunan sebati. Takde gambar la nak tunjuk. Sebab tadi jari penuh tepung camne nak snap snap.

To be continued. Penat naip. Hahah tata

Sambung 3 Nov 2014

Dah gaul semua elok2. Bubuh dalam satu bekas yang boleh tutup. Atau letak dalam dulang dan tutup dengan kain basah. Macam-macam la caranya, ada kata jangan bagi kena udara. Tapi iols letak je dalam bekas and then tutup. Pastikan anda boleh agakla kuantiti adunan tu dan saiz dia camne.

Tinggalkan adunan tersebut dalam masa 45 minit. Setengah jam pun boleh kalau tak sabar.
Masa ni bolehlah nak blender gula jadi halus.. Sebab rumah iols takde gula kastor. Kalau teringin boleh juga sediakan inti. Ada sekali makan donat inti kacang merah. Amboi sedapnya.

Dah agak-agak adunan tu jadi sekali ganda dari saiz asal. Dah boleh tumbuk dia! Kepus! Pastu uli lagi golek-golek dan bentukkan ikut suka. Nak buat donat ada yang pakai terap. Terap tu ada jual di kedai-kedai barang kek berdekatan anda. Tapi masa tu iols buat bulat2 je. Bajet chocoball. Hehe. Dah siap bentukkan tu biar sekejap dalam 10 minit. Adunan akan naik lagi. Masa goreng pun dia akan naik lagi. Jadi agak-agak la nak besar mana. Btw kat pantai dalam ada donat Adibah Noor. Yum yum

Pastu panaskan minyak dan goreng donat kepus anda dengan api sederhana!

Ok repeat steps:

1. Panaskan air satu cawan -> bancuh empat sudu gula -> tambah tiga sudu susu pekat -> campur sepaket yis -> biarkan sampai yis berbuih macam teh tarik
2. Cairkan mentega tiga sudu -> bubuh telur sebiji
3. Ayak tiga cawan tepung + garam sesudu kecil
4. Campur mentega cair tadi ke dalam bancuhan yis
5. Gaul dengan tepung bagi sekata dan seia
6. Biarkan sampai sekali ganda saiz asal
7. Tumbuk! Kepus!
8. Bentukkan
9. Goreng

Jjang!

Eyyo. Selamat hari raya!

Minta maafkan semua kesalahan, sengaja atau tak sengaja, semoga Allah balas dengan kebaikan.

But I don't want to blog about raya. At least, not today. I wanted to blog about my one week trip to Germany one month ago, on the 14th-21st of June.

I started working as a freelance translator for extra money while I was in my third year of degree. Nine months later, the manager asked me if I would go on a training. For a week. In Germany. With all expenses paid.

Now of course I have to have my own passport but other than that, I don't have to pay for anything. Yay! Of course my heart leaped. Apart from the small internal tornadoes and some parental qualms. Mak said she was worried that it was some scam, so I had second thoughts, and even told the company that I don't wanna go. But they said this and that and so I went.

And I came back with my brother who bought his ticket back to Malaysia since a month before, and we spent nine hours on transit in Hanoi, Vietnam before finally arriving in KL.

I was thinking about the long flight, and how it was so level, it felt so safe, so natural, like walking on hard ground. Massive driving force pushing you through rolling wind back into the arms of the beloved. But there was really only a few centimetres of aluminium separating you and the endless sky outside, where there really was no escape.

The pictures I took are never worth keeping.

Oh, I managed to visit some few friends at Friedrichshafen, cuties Kimi n Zakiah, who cooked an amazing dinner and brought me paddling on Bodensee which was a few kilometres away from Switzerland. May Allah repay you with kindness!

Ending is the New Beginning

FINALLY I AM GRADUATING WOOHOOO

Technically not yet, as the convocation is in October. But I take it that finally, finally, letzendlich I am finally approaching the end of my degree.

You know how long this journey takes.. Orang lain dah masters beranak ranak. Kihkih. Rezeki kan dapat lain-lain.

Practicum ended with a bang (lol) on Teachers' Day. My first ever. Awww. Students were so cute. Sad faces when saying goodbye. And having students spending their parents' money on you makes me feel so guilty, but I like getting them presents all the same!

Pictures above was from Teachers' Day. Theme for the teachers was black and white and grey lol

I factory reset my phone during the third last week so these are the only pictures left haha. Too lazy to look for them in the memory card.

Alhamdulillah, thank you for the lessons and the memories, SEMESTA!

There will be more to come...

I got into class on Wednesday and taught the rowdy crowd as usual. When some of them are doing an exercise, I went around the class and noticed a student telling his friend off: "Cikgulah! Cikgu!" And then the friend shoved something under the desk. I went. And saw it was a comic book. Lawak Kampus, nasib baik tak hentai.
So I took the comic and put it away in my handbag, thinking of returning it after class. Yang tuan punya tu dah marah dah. Cakap, mahal ok, kau bayar balik. I went on with class as usual. At the end of class, biasalah students came and help with packing up, the girls nak salam cium tangan lagi plak tu so huru-haralah.
The day went on and it's only until early evening that I remembered about the comic. And I noticed one thing: as I put and take things in and out of my handbag during the day, I have not seen the comic at all. A student must have taken it out. I was really angry. Angry sebab they dared to open my bag and take it out without me knowing. It's not mine, but it is still stealing. And I was really really angry so I resolved to bring them in front of the GPK HEM.
Pagi ni kelas dengan diorang. I was a nervous wreck. I did not know what to do. I did not want to tell anybody but I wanted advice, and the teachers I wanted to talk to wasn't in their room so I had to see somebody I feel comfortable with. So I went and asked. But the teacher went on and asked another teacher so news got round like that.
After class this morning, I called the two of them to my desk and I went on with the questioning. Tapi tak setel. I called them to the teachers' room. The moment diorang sampai, I said, let's go see Ust. Wan. Terus budak tu nangis.

Anyway in the end aku pun nangis jugak kahkahkah.

Masih lagi, masih Shah Rukh Khan~

Sebab siang tadi TV3 tayang Kabhi Khushi Kabhi Gham, dan Sabtu ni plak konsert Temptation Reloaded tapi tak boleh pegi sebab nak pegi Raub, dan perasaannya agak masam di situ. Dan sebab Aiman bash tadi, dia kata suruh cari Bangla seorang sebab umur dah tua masih lagi minat Hindustan, maka nak lah, tulis post ini. Hahaha.

Tak bermakna pun.

Anyway permulaan minat Hindustan mestilah Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, darjah lima tahun 1998. Permulaan semua orang nan sebaya kot. Anyway mungkin ramai dah move on, minat KPop, minat JPop, minat Metal Indie Ska dan berbagai lagi genre musik yang berbeda-beda. Berbalik kepada KKHH, filem memang ikonik, tahap hafal step dan lagu dia semayang masa anak Anjali kecil pergi summer camp.

Sekarang pun tengok masih sengih-sengih, sampaikan bila ada suara latar cakap "Miss Briganza, ah haa~" pun boleh masuk tu on cue.

Tahun 2008 kot, SRK datang Melaka, masa dia dapat Datuk tu kan. Hahaha. Ni dak Ena la tadi ni, dok flashback. Dia kata masa SRK datang Eye On Melaka yang dah cabut tu, dia baru dapat lesen, pastu kitorang plak tinggal dia dalam kereta suruh reverse parking. Pastu dia sedih dan minta tolong abang yang parking belakang. Angah pegi kejar SRK, dia dapat salam woo~ aku plak yang terhegeh-hegeh nak ambil gambar tak lepas-lepas. Tapi, memang dapat tengok depan-depan hihi. Masa tu dekat Taming Sari, aku berdiri jauh dah, rupanya Cayenne tersebut berhenti betul-betul depan mata weeehuu~

Tapi gambar ni dekat Eye On Melaka. Dia senyum sebenarnya. Tapi bila tengah snap terus pusing. Geramm

Mak andak OP masa tu. Dia bagi gambar. Gambar tu dah hilang sebab upload kat Friendster pastu didelete semua masa dia nak rebranding. Sob

Another end, another beginning

Tomorrow I go back to the university for the start of my final year. One last semester at the teacher training institute, then off I go to school for practicum. Then the wait for the call for posting. Which I'm sure is going to be a long one.
This semester break is by far the most eventful. I met old friends, reconnected. I took charge of a lot of things- it was small scale I know but it was a start... I feel like I'm starting to grow up, and though it's like a budding root trying to break through the surface of the soil, it's still a start.

It's raining.

It's gloomy and melancholic so I'll give in to my heartache.

Kereta api Pemikiran

Faculty organised a charity event with anak-anak yatim Rumah Kebajikan Anak Yatim Al-Khairiyah Batu 1 1/2, Sungai Pinang, Klang. It was in May, I think.
Rumah okay. Bilik macam dorm. Tapi mungkin kurang selesa bila ramai-ramai cuma share tiga, empat shower dan tandas. Anak-anak solat berjemaah setiap waktu. Bukan anak yatim saja di sini. Anak-anak orang miskin pun ada. Anak-anaknya dah biasa dengan tetamu. Saja-saja je diorang datang dan duduk atas riba. Nampak budak berbaju biru dalam gambar? Nama dia dah lupa lah. Panggil Afiq lah. Hehe
Afiq degil. Suka jauhkan diri. Kalau kena duduk dalam kumpulan, tak pernahnya reti duduk sekali. Dia duduk di belakang dewan. Sorang-sorang. Tapi nampak kasih sayangnya pada adik-adik yang muda. Kami satu kumpulan. Main musical chair, kita hantar dua wakil. Bila musik berhenti, Afiq dapat kerusi. Ahli kumpulan kita yang lagi satu, yang lagi kecik, tak dapat. Cepat-cepat dia bangun dan dudukkan budak tu atas kerusi. Kiranya dia terkeluarlah. Terus aku bagi air ribena sekotak. Dia ingat orang tak nampak.
Kalau ada aktiviti dia memang ikut serta. Tapi tak mahu mesra dengan orang. Dengan adik-adik je dia okay. Bila panggil duduk sebelah, dia datang. Bila panggil amik gambar, macam tu lah. Malu tapi mau. Ke tak mau. Tak tahu T___T
Di akhir hari, kumpulan kita menang tiga hamper. Dia dengan seorang lagi share satu hamper. Terus buka nak dibahagi-bahagi makanan dalam tu. Kebetulan masa tu dah di luar dewan, isteri pengetua rumah nampak dan kata, "Bagi lah bonda sikit," terus dia bagi. Dia cuma ambil biskut sekotak. Yang lain habis dia bagi-bagikan. Aku suruh simpan, nanti lapar, malam-malam, makanlah. 

Dia jawab, "Kak, kitorang tak perlukan semua ni."

Heartbreak.

Oh ya, salah satu sponsornya Mayang Sari Resort, terima kasih!

Kecil je nama di nombor enam T__T

People in their 20s build their dreams, people in their 30s achieve them

Nowadays scrolling down the Facebook homepage can lead to emotional distress. I saw a senior in school being congratulated for her solo exhibition at an art gallery. A friend who shared desks with me at school set up her own company and is reaping the profits. The others are working, gaining recognition, are proudly displaying their offspring. Hahaha. That is an achievement of its own, okay? Watching schoolmates, old friends and acquaintances building their dreams and being successful at it makes me feel so hopeless in my own endless struggle. Of course, less people post about their failures so I can feel a tiny wee bit superior. They share happy moments which of course, warmed a part of my heart when I see it -

Well famous quotes are right, all that seizing the day stuff - you live the moment, hakuna matata, carpe diem. Sebab if you want to do a thing, find time to do it now, squeeze it into your schedules, sbb nanti in future you would regret not doing it.
But at the same time, that quote 'things happen for a reason' is also true. My faith even depends on believing it. Even knowing this I need to whine once in a while. Duh

I went to KUSESS for a one-week visit. Observed German language classes, luckily the students' socks didn't smell that bad. And their mistakes were so damn funny. I must exercise care not to laugh at my future student's mistakes. Anyway. I had a micro-teaching session and my heart dropped at the prospect of me failing miserably as a teacher.
I thought my methods are good enough, my exercises good enough, explanations clear enough. Though fairly speaking, it was my first time taking the role of a teacher, and there's always that infinite room for improvement. But delivering the things you learnt theoretically and making sure other real, living people with different psychological traits and learning styles are gaining from it is a big deal weh. I explained a bit of grammar, turned away from the white board and was met with blank faces. My brain was whirring hysterically with 'what do I do now?' Those were my friends I was teaching, whose German language abilities matches mine. What about schoolkids? Form 1 students who wasn't even sure why they were sitting there in the first place?

I heard from another fellow who was doing his practical, that he lost interest in the job after a month. There's this big looming shadow that's waiting to engulf me in the same dark state...
Anyway. One thing that's sure to motivate me is the need to see that what I started will gain compliments. hahaha. I'm vain. I want to be recognized for my efforts. I want people to tell me I did a good job, to feel that satisfaction when my teachlings (? too lazy to think of a better word) are able to function by themselves. So I must teach them well. If they don't want to learn, I'll put them in a headlock and force them to swallow things whole. There's no escaping the fact that most of the teachers themselves are responsible for failures in the syllabus / programs / curricula / visions missions and stuff. Not many are ready to change from their usual norms.

Of course, I'm young, hot-blooded and motivated, almost roaringly waiting at the starting line. Let's pray that I'll be forever young, hot-blooded and motivated for the rest of my teaching career. However long that lasts. Hey, I want to be rich too...